Student Life : September 2011 Edition

I’ve recently begun university in London, and although I didn’t attend my uni’s freshers’ week, my flatmates and I created our own fun.

Our version of freshers’ week was filled with and consisted of: late night games of ‘hide and seek’ with the house in complete darkness; our own variation of the cad gme ‘bullshit’ where if a person was found to be bullshitting they had to take a shot of the alcoholic drinks we had in the house (malibu, lambrini and sidekick), as well as various shopping trips to asda, and the new westfield in stratford city.

On our first night together in the house,us girls ended up taking a night walk in our pyjamasa, to ‘explore’ the area. We ended up at a local petrol station, where we bought overpriced snacks…

Another night, we took another late night pyjama walk, this time accompanied by one of our flatmates and one of my girls’ ‘boyfriend’

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This week we begun our lctures, which for me have been so far, so good. In a couple of weeks, I will come back and update upon any more nights of debauchery my flatmates and I end up getting into

i think i'm happier alone

over the years, i've always seemed to put my "friends" before myself. i don't know why, but i#m just one of those people who cares too much. i think that will always be my downfall when it comes to people. i'm the kind of person who will drop everything for someone who calls me and claims to be having an emergency.

as time has passed, i slowly began to relise that people were not returning the favour. it always feels like i'm the one initiating outings or conversations, but nobody else seems to want to make the same effort wth me. so i started doing everything alone pretty much. i shop alone, if i feel like having a nice meal, i'll ordere a takeaway and enjoy it front of the tv or something. i don't see the point in chasing people up anymore. it always feels like i#m forcing coversations with people who can never be bothered to make the effort with me.

i always used to feel really alone, but now that i am actually alone, i feel fine. the only people i speak to on a daily basis now are the family members that i live with. i don't feel close to anyone anymore, and i thought i'd be really sad and lonely, but at the end of the day i'm going to die alone so what's the point of expecting to people to always be around.

the fact that i can't even rely on smeone to respond to a text message, but when they want something i'm expected to do it, no qestions asked, just proves what kind of people i used to be friends with.

they say keep your cicle tight, but at this moment in time, i don't even feel like i have enough real friends to form a circle.

i now find myself listening to michael jackson's "you are not alne" everydayl maybe that's why i feel happy lol