My Addiction

He was my drug. 

Deadly and addictive. 

No good for me, but i could never let it go, could never give it up. 

when he was nowhere to be found i was fiending for him like a crackhead.  But then whenever i got another hit I knew it wasn't worth it, i was just playing myself. 

After the rejection came the withdrawal symptoms. Slowly but surely, my cravings for him increased, but then they peaked and over time they became less and less. 

I no longer sat awake, crying, calling out for him. It was hard but i knew he wasn't what i needed, he was just a dirty, disgusting habit that i needed to be rid of and break free from. 

He is now poisoning some other bitch's life, leaving track marks on her arms. She wakes up with the after effects of the come down, wishing she had never felt the touch of his love. 

But he's no longer mine and no longer my problem.  No longer my problem. 

What goes around comes around, ain't that how the story goes? 

New years not so new me!

So February had come and once again I've filled mty pledge to start a new diet and exercise regime this January.

I've probably gained more weight than losing any...

Although I have a holiday coming up in June I just don't have any motivation, even though I wanted to do it for my health, I've still failed.

February is here now so I still have more than enough time to make even the smallest change....

Watch thus space...... 

Astley Graham - the inspiration..

#morningmotivation I just love the way Astley Graham owns it and rocks it, she's so comfortable with who she is and the way she looks, no matter what the haters say! Remember if you're not happy, you can always try to change whatever it is, no matter how long it takes 😊

New year, new fitness goals

TtTTIn just six months she was able to make an amazing transformation. Never give up, summer is only a few months away now and no-one wants to be that self conscious person by the pool or on the beach. Let's get going and make it happen! I say it all the time but this new year I am determined to make a change, no matter how big or small. I WIL do it and you will see the change in me. I'm doing this all by myself, for myself.  Watch me! Xoxo #healthiswealth

Vlog - Black Lives Matter

Please click the link below to watch my latest vlog, in which I speak on the black lives matter movement and police brutality.

https://youtu.be/dNyIybLWSEM

Time

The length of time that you've known someone doesn't always determine the quality of a friendship or relationship. 

There are people in my life that I've known for months who I trust more and can rely onore than people I've known for years. These same people I've known for years are the ones who consistently take the piss and can never be bothered to be there for me until it suits them.

I'm at a point where I simply feel like enough is enough. 

The double standards of male/female sexuality

Slag. Hoe. Slut. Loose. Friendly with the crotch.

Whatever word  or term you want to use, it all still means the same thing.

These phrases are regularly used when describing a female who is deemed to be promiscuous by society or even by an individual.

I'm 22 years old currently, and looking back. I have harshly and unfairly used this term, as have many others but it seems like it is becoming more and more acceptable to use these terms in a nonchalant manner.

These kinds of terms are used so frequently these days, especially by males who are doing the exact same (and worse) things  than whatever these females did to gain this name for themselves. 

This brings me to my point - why is there such a significant level of double standards when it comes to male and female sexuality?

A young man can sleep with 100 girls and no-one will bat an eyelid, but a girl who has slept with five guys in a year is seen as or called a "slut'.

A guy can cheat on his girlfriend repeatedly, his girlfriend has sex with someone once, but she is the hoe?

Then the guy will have the cheek to say something to rhe effect of" im a guy it's okay for me to be a hoe, you're a girl, you can't do that." This is complete and utter nonsense!

How can a male who has committed far worse acts dare to sit and judge a female for not doing anything that is unheard of.

If it's not okay for a woman to be promiscuous, then why is it okay for a man to be? Are we not all the same species, basically the same people?

I don't care what other people are doing as long as it's not directly affecting me or reflecting upon me, however men feel it's okay to slut shame when they don't even know a person's full story.

How do you know she wasn't gang-raped or abused, anything could have happened.

If a man can sleep around and do as he pleases then why can't a woman do the same if that is what she really wants to do?

I'm not condoning or excusing anything. I'm just saying, people should not be so quick to label females with these horrible names if they are not perfect themselves. 

Nobody is perfect so stop acting like you are or as if the Y chromosome within you makes it okay to put your penis into anything with a pulse.

Men are very judgemental when it comes to these things and it shouldn't be regarded as "boye will be boys," but "hoes gon be hoes."

Parents with both sons and daughters shouldn't let something slide for their boy but come down on the girl for the same things, you're just teaching her that she can't do the same as somebody else but then you want her to be treated equally like everyone else, right?

If an adult decides they want to do certain things with their body then surely that is up to them?

I know things are probably never gonna change but it's so unfair, especially when the person being given a name isn't even promiscuous!